I’m holding on.

Can I say I’m going through now? This has been one of my hardest seasons yet. Coming from cloud nine with just me and my Jesus to moving into a new home with a father I don’t understand, who is so distant; to being talked about and looked down on for no reason. I sit and look at all that is around me and I can’t help but think “can I do this”. The enemy has been plaguing my mind. Telling me I’m not good enough and I’m a failure. He shows me “me”, reminding me of what I can’t do.

Soul, why are you so cast down? Remember the truth that you know. These trials come to build you, to make you perfect in the Lord, not to take you out! The Lord loves you! Just rest and see the salvation of the Lord. He said in your weakness, He is made strong. See the strength of the Lord. Allow God to work in you and through you those things that the enemy says you can’t do because the truth is you can’t! But God can!

This is the test. Do you believe the report? You know the truth, you jump at it, but do you truly believe it? To believe is to rest and obey. Will you do that? Will you allow me to show principalities and powers MY manifold wisdom?

It’s not easy God. It hurts sometimes. But… I know there is nothing outside of you that makes me happy! I would die in this world. And I love you. I love you so much. So yes, I will wait. I will trust you. I will believe you. Have your way.

This is a conversation I had with myself and God. Sometimes it’s hard to open up when we are going through. It’s not alright when everything isn’t going right. But silence makes way for the enemy. Sometimes we have to minister to ourselves and remind ourselves of the truth! Talk to God, talk to a friend, truth is you may not be the only one going through! But I know that there is nothing like when God encourages you though.

This is for my sister out there who is about to give up and my brother who doesn’t see the point of going on. I encourage you to keep holding on! Praise God through these trials! The Lord promises that your end will be greater if you endure! They say purpose is more powerful than pain; remember the promises God has spoken to you, remember the love you have for God and let that soothe your soul.

Jeremiah 29:11King James Version (KJV)

¹¹ For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end.

I love you

Mo.